For those familiar with this blog, you'll know I've written a few 'Letters' in what I like to call A Letter series. I did one for Bama when she passed, one for my wife & always have the intent to write one for my daughter who will be here in August. I said I was going to wait until that time got closer but I just decided I didn't want to wait anymore.
Dear Daughter,
I remember it like it was yesterday when Mommy told me she was pregnant. We're we surprised- yes. We're we like is this accurate- yes. I say these things because for a while I wasn't sure we were going to be able to have another child naturally considering we did have to take some medicine to have your big brother. So when I say we're surprised it's the best kind of surprise your Dad has ever received in his life and I'm pretty sure Mommy would agree!
You're still a little over 7 weeks away but already there isn't anything I wouldn't do for you. I am going to be your hero, protector & an unconditional support for you your entire life until my last breath. I am going to love you with all of my heart, my being & soul until my last breath. I will pick you up when life throws an obstacle your way & I will chase anyone away who breaks your heart! I've always had more friends who are girls so I've always thought what I would be like as a father to a girl of my own.
I've often wondered what it would be like to go to a daddy daughter dance or bigger then that- walk you down the aisle. I'll admit, I'm gonna need some help when it comes to doing your hair and picking out matching clothes, cause let's face it, I'm a guy and don't care about that stuff but if it's important to you- it'll be important to me. I want to be a hero in your eyes for as long as I can and if someone else comes along and is worthy to take my place, then I'll welcome that person with open arms. They will have to pass my tests along the way but I'm sure there will someone worthy of you one day, but we shall see.
I want you to know there will be scary times in your life, happy times, sad times and everything in between but know this, I will always be there to wrap my arms around you, reach for your hand when your scared & lift you up when you need me. I want you to know that people will disappoint you and friends you thought were friends we'll betray you. Those who really care about you, those who stick with you through good times & in bad, those are the people you want with you when you're older, trust me I know from first hand experience.
I want your voice to be your voice. I want you to believe in whatever it is you want to believe in, and if you have questions along the way, ask. I want the world for you and of course your big brother and will do everything in my power to provide it for you. Do you think I'm working as hard as I do cause I enjoy it lol...I do sometimes, but everything I do is to provide for you and your brother. There might be times where Mommy and Daddy are fighting or aren't getting along and that's ok. Grown ups, Mom's and Dad's fight sometimes but know this- we love you both more then anything and it's all gonna work itself out, I promise.
I'm sorry for all the kisses you're going to get during the early years of your life because your Dad loves kisses. I want you to know that I love you each and every day and it's the little things, the little actions that mean the most. Dream Big and if you fall, I'll be there to pick you up. You are my entire world baby girl. I sit here now putting my thoughts to this letter and I can't believe how excited I am for you to arrive. I can't wait to see you be held by Mommy for the first time and then of course held by me.
You were carried by your Mommy during a time that this world has never seen before and I hope it's one you'll never have to experience in your life time baby girl. I want you to know something, I at times didn't make it easy on Mommy during this Pandemic. She would joke and say I had her on house arrest but I did it for your safety and Mommy's. Trust me when I say there will be a time when the four of us go on a magical vacation or getaway and in those moments I'll look at Mommy and say- it was totally worth it right! To witness the little moments you'll share with your big brother will reassure what I've known all along- it was worth it.
I want you to know that even Daddy's get scared sometimes baby girl. Truth be told, I'm scared each and every day during this time in our history right now and all I care about is your safety along with your brothers & Mommy of course. I was beyond grateful and blessed to know we were going to welcome a daughter into this world and then when this virus came around it made me appreciate it that much more. Your mommy is incredibly brave, strong & amazing baby girl I want you to realize that the first time you have a fight. I can't imagine the fear she sometimes had and of course wouldn't tell me about knowing that I had enough to worry about and wouldn't want to add it to my plate.
In closing, baby girl, I love you more then life itself. I will try to be the best daddy in your life that I can and I promise to never stop. Will I be embarrassing or overstep sometimes, damn right I will, but it comes from a good place. I literally am counting the days, hours, minutes & seconds until I get to hold you for the first time in my arms and kiss your head. Until that time, you enjoy being in Mommy's tummy and let her get some sleep.
I love you.
Dada
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