I've been debating whether or not I should interject my thoughts on this whole riot situation and after waking up to the news this morning and seeing nothing but devastation and chaos, I'm going to offer my two cents.
What happened to George Floyd is inexcusable and shouldn't be tolerated and justice will come for those criminals who did that to him, but what is going on now, is absolutely unjust and only continues to reaffirm my true thoughts on this country- it's pathetic and so are most of it's inhabitants!
You don't want to say it, so I will. I've lost all hope in humanity as I've gotten older as people continue to really showcase their true colors and their 'moral fiber.'
I know there is good and I see it sometimes, but far too often the darkness comes out and it really showcases how people truly are.
For those rioting downtown, they should all be arrested and thrown in a jail cell for a minimum of 6 months, let's teach these low life degenerate scumbags that if you break the law, you will get punished for it! Enough with this protest label, these aren't protests- it's breaking the law! What is going to happen to these store owners? Yeah I know insurance will step in, but this is ridiculous. Cop cars set on fire, news fans having Fuck spray painted all over it, I'd like to line all these people up and throw their asses in jail one by one!
If you don't like this option, truth be told, I could care less. We live in a world full of monsters and degenerates and I've seen that more and more with each passing day! I'm truly fearful of what it's going to be like when my son is older & my future daughter! They will live in a world I'm sure 10x more messed up than this one is currently and that's a scary thought all to itself.
To all the police officers out there, I hope you all stay safe and if need be, use some freaking force. Protect yourself and not these idiots down there. They don't care about you- so why the F should you care about them. Honestly? Why should we? This isn't about spreading a message anymore and the faster people come to that realization- the better off we will all be.
Here's hoping 2021 is a better year, but I know it won't be...
Sunday, May 31, 2020
Wednesday, May 27, 2020
The simple things..
Lately I think I've let stress and fear consume me and I've forgotten what this post is titled...'The Simple Things.'
It's hard sometimes isn't it? With the news always showing the worst in people, Covid cases piling and piling up, it's hard to see the light at the end of this dark tunnel we've all been stuck in since mid March. And I feel that has been me lately....I've been struggling with my weight again, not gaining a ton, but I've been working at this now for over a year and a half and I'm very hard on myself as I worked very hard to get to where I'm at now.
Work has been stressful even more stressful than I think it needs to be. It truly is disgusting to hear how selfish and conceded some people can be at times like this. Like, do you realize you're fortunate to have a job, shut the f up and be grateful! But I digress and move on as I could write a novel about this subject but won't.
Today I got to sit down at the table and have waffles with my son and for a few moments life felt a little easier. Sure the phone was already buzzing with emails that needed my attention, I also was happy that I stepped on the scale for my weekly Wednesday weigh in and lost 1.6 lbs from last week, but today felt a little different. My son in the sweetest voice asked me to turn on Roomba, our vacuum and as I sit here now and watch him walk back and forth with 'his' roomba as he likes to call it, I just think life truly isn't that bad sometimes. I have a healthy son, a healthy 29 week pregnant wife and it does appear that light is starting to break down some of those boulders at the end of the tunnel.
I watch him and am reminded that he's the light in my life when things are tough. He's not judging me, he's just happy to see me and when he tells me he misses me, it melts my heart. I watch him now drink his juice and leap onto the couch because his vacuum is going to quote on quote get him lol. He reminds me that even when the world is a scary place and full of hate and monsters, there is some good which I see through him.
So today I am going to step back and truly just enjoy my time at home with him and really just enjoy The Simple Things!
It's hard sometimes isn't it? With the news always showing the worst in people, Covid cases piling and piling up, it's hard to see the light at the end of this dark tunnel we've all been stuck in since mid March. And I feel that has been me lately....I've been struggling with my weight again, not gaining a ton, but I've been working at this now for over a year and a half and I'm very hard on myself as I worked very hard to get to where I'm at now.
Work has been stressful even more stressful than I think it needs to be. It truly is disgusting to hear how selfish and conceded some people can be at times like this. Like, do you realize you're fortunate to have a job, shut the f up and be grateful! But I digress and move on as I could write a novel about this subject but won't.
Today I got to sit down at the table and have waffles with my son and for a few moments life felt a little easier. Sure the phone was already buzzing with emails that needed my attention, I also was happy that I stepped on the scale for my weekly Wednesday weigh in and lost 1.6 lbs from last week, but today felt a little different. My son in the sweetest voice asked me to turn on Roomba, our vacuum and as I sit here now and watch him walk back and forth with 'his' roomba as he likes to call it, I just think life truly isn't that bad sometimes. I have a healthy son, a healthy 29 week pregnant wife and it does appear that light is starting to break down some of those boulders at the end of the tunnel.
I watch him and am reminded that he's the light in my life when things are tough. He's not judging me, he's just happy to see me and when he tells me he misses me, it melts my heart. I watch him now drink his juice and leap onto the couch because his vacuum is going to quote on quote get him lol. He reminds me that even when the world is a scary place and full of hate and monsters, there is some good which I see through him.
So today I am going to step back and truly just enjoy my time at home with him and really just enjoy The Simple Things!
Wednesday, May 20, 2020
Thinking of her...
I have been thinking a lot lately about her. I love her more then words can explain & will already do anything and everything for her! I want her to know that yes I was crazy during this pandemic but I did it all to keep her safe. I want her to know that I will protect her no matter what and no matter from whom.
Her grip on me is already taking hold and bending it towards what she wants. Her love for me will be endless & will mine for her. Her determination and strength will come not just from me, but from my wife as well. Her fears will hopefully be calmed knowing I'm fearful constantly during times such as these and want to relieve her of any fear she may have.
The her I'm referring to is my daughter. Now, for those of you who follow this blog, you know that I have what I like to call 'The Letter' series & the next Letter will be saved for the arrival of my daughter and it's one I can't wait to write but as we hit 28 weeks today and approach our August due date, I can't help but think of her.
I can't imagine what she's going to look like, act like and everything in between. I have just had her on my mind each and every day as of late and every action I take is with her in mind. I don't want to go on too much as I'll save that for A Letter for my Daughter (coming this August).
Just a quick little thing I wanted to put out there tonight as I can't wait for you to arrive Baby Girl. Hopefully by then this is all calmed & subsided but know this, if it hasn't your Dad & Mom will protect you from it all.
Her grip on me is already taking hold and bending it towards what she wants. Her love for me will be endless & will mine for her. Her determination and strength will come not just from me, but from my wife as well. Her fears will hopefully be calmed knowing I'm fearful constantly during times such as these and want to relieve her of any fear she may have.
The her I'm referring to is my daughter. Now, for those of you who follow this blog, you know that I have what I like to call 'The Letter' series & the next Letter will be saved for the arrival of my daughter and it's one I can't wait to write but as we hit 28 weeks today and approach our August due date, I can't help but think of her.
I can't imagine what she's going to look like, act like and everything in between. I have just had her on my mind each and every day as of late and every action I take is with her in mind. I don't want to go on too much as I'll save that for A Letter for my Daughter (coming this August).
Just a quick little thing I wanted to put out there tonight as I can't wait for you to arrive Baby Girl. Hopefully by then this is all calmed & subsided but know this, if it hasn't your Dad & Mom will protect you from it all.
Sunday, May 17, 2020
My first time...screaming girls & some hurt ear drums!
Now I know what you are thinking...what and huh? If that doesn't grab your attention, then I don't know what will. I'm talking about my first concert of course. Shout out to Julie for the suggestion as it's been a few days since my last tirade, I mean post here at the blog!
So Julie today suggested I write about my first concert experience and I'm certainly not bashful to say it was BSB..Backstreet Boys! #TeamBSB
As I've gotten older I've come to still love BSB music and scream it out in the car everytime it comes on the radio! But I digress, my dad was given free sky box tickets to I think it was called The World at the time, (Tweeter center) as I like to still call it and there was nothing but screaming girls and busted ear drums for me for several days afterwards. At the time, I truly didn't really know much of their catalog, only select hits, but I was hooked on concerts from that moment on.
I don't spend my money on much now a days, other then going to the movies, but I've been to probably about 60-75 concert now between my ages of 15-present (33). I love a good concert. Nothing beats a good old fashioned rock and roll concert, so I wanted to make this post about my favorite concert of all time in addition to talking about BSB popping my cherry (don't worry, they were extremely gentle).
I've seen some heavy hitters in my day, Aerosmith (7 times; fav band of all time), AC/DC, Van Halen (Roth & Hagar), Guns N' Roses (thank god they reunited), Velvet Revolver (like 7-8 times, one of my fav bands during High School & College), Bon Jovi, Journey, Foreigner, KISS, you name them, I've probably seen them. But a good classic rock band will always stand the test of time for a few reasons. It's truly them playing, singing and entertaining a sold out arena.
I have to reference Aerosmith as the Kings of the Crop! Nobody and I mean nobody can control a crowd in the palm of their hand like Sir Steven Tyler! Aerosmith for me is a musical release and for 2 hours I can forget about the world and just flat out rock and freaking roll! Of course I know every word, can out duel anyone in a Joe Perry guitar solo, seriously, I welcome a challenger who thinks they can out play me in air guitar!
Their songs, their chemistry is undeniable and there is a reason they are America's best selling rock band of all time and have been together for over 40 years! These aren't senior citizens on the stage, it's pure American Rock & Roll! Like I said earlier, I've seen them perform over a half dozen times, and never miss a show from them when they come to the Chicagoland area! This one particular concert was attended by myself and my brother and it was a dream bill- the opening act was Slash w/ his band Myles Kennedy and the Conspirators. Side note- if you've never listened to either of those two albums, it's some good shit!
Slash of course is in like my 1B favorite band of all time- Guns N' Roses so seeing him live is always a treat and I'm so happy he's back in GNR! Anyways, Slash and co. absolutely killed it for close to an hour playing his hits and of course ending his set list with Paradise City! I don't think there is a better song to close a set to than that song! Thoughts? Suggestions?
Aerosmith came out a half hour later that night, and there's nothing like an outdoor concert on a perfect summer night, which it was, and they brought the house down. Going through the hits- Walk This Way, Sweet Emotion, Love in an Elevator & of course one of my favorite songs of all time- Dream On. There is not a better song live to belt out loud then the final chorus of Dream On, and Steven can still hit that high note and it's something incredible to witness each and every time!
I look back on that concert and just smile, because it was truly epic and one I soon won't forget. With concerts probably an after thought for 2020 and most acts starting to cancel or reschedule for 2021, I think this was a fitting topic to touch on so I thank you Julie! Now that I'm done typing, it's time to perhaps crack open a beer and start jamming to some good old Aerosmith. I'll throw in some BSB for good measure as well.
Everyone have a good evening and let me know your guys first concerts as well by replying here or on my Facebook Page!
So Julie today suggested I write about my first concert experience and I'm certainly not bashful to say it was BSB..Backstreet Boys! #TeamBSB
As I've gotten older I've come to still love BSB music and scream it out in the car everytime it comes on the radio! But I digress, my dad was given free sky box tickets to I think it was called The World at the time, (Tweeter center) as I like to still call it and there was nothing but screaming girls and busted ear drums for me for several days afterwards. At the time, I truly didn't really know much of their catalog, only select hits, but I was hooked on concerts from that moment on.
I don't spend my money on much now a days, other then going to the movies, but I've been to probably about 60-75 concert now between my ages of 15-present (33). I love a good concert. Nothing beats a good old fashioned rock and roll concert, so I wanted to make this post about my favorite concert of all time in addition to talking about BSB popping my cherry (don't worry, they were extremely gentle).
I've seen some heavy hitters in my day, Aerosmith (7 times; fav band of all time), AC/DC, Van Halen (Roth & Hagar), Guns N' Roses (thank god they reunited), Velvet Revolver (like 7-8 times, one of my fav bands during High School & College), Bon Jovi, Journey, Foreigner, KISS, you name them, I've probably seen them. But a good classic rock band will always stand the test of time for a few reasons. It's truly them playing, singing and entertaining a sold out arena.
I have to reference Aerosmith as the Kings of the Crop! Nobody and I mean nobody can control a crowd in the palm of their hand like Sir Steven Tyler! Aerosmith for me is a musical release and for 2 hours I can forget about the world and just flat out rock and freaking roll! Of course I know every word, can out duel anyone in a Joe Perry guitar solo, seriously, I welcome a challenger who thinks they can out play me in air guitar!
Their songs, their chemistry is undeniable and there is a reason they are America's best selling rock band of all time and have been together for over 40 years! These aren't senior citizens on the stage, it's pure American Rock & Roll! Like I said earlier, I've seen them perform over a half dozen times, and never miss a show from them when they come to the Chicagoland area! This one particular concert was attended by myself and my brother and it was a dream bill- the opening act was Slash w/ his band Myles Kennedy and the Conspirators. Side note- if you've never listened to either of those two albums, it's some good shit!
Slash of course is in like my 1B favorite band of all time- Guns N' Roses so seeing him live is always a treat and I'm so happy he's back in GNR! Anyways, Slash and co. absolutely killed it for close to an hour playing his hits and of course ending his set list with Paradise City! I don't think there is a better song to close a set to than that song! Thoughts? Suggestions?
Aerosmith came out a half hour later that night, and there's nothing like an outdoor concert on a perfect summer night, which it was, and they brought the house down. Going through the hits- Walk This Way, Sweet Emotion, Love in an Elevator & of course one of my favorite songs of all time- Dream On. There is not a better song live to belt out loud then the final chorus of Dream On, and Steven can still hit that high note and it's something incredible to witness each and every time!
I look back on that concert and just smile, because it was truly epic and one I soon won't forget. With concerts probably an after thought for 2020 and most acts starting to cancel or reschedule for 2021, I think this was a fitting topic to touch on so I thank you Julie! Now that I'm done typing, it's time to perhaps crack open a beer and start jamming to some good old Aerosmith. I'll throw in some BSB for good measure as well.
Everyone have a good evening and let me know your guys first concerts as well by replying here or on my Facebook Page!
Wednesday, May 13, 2020
I'm at a loss for words...
I've been sitting back the last few days just watching the news, reading articles & seeing how disgusting some people are in today's world. Some of you may not like what I'm about to say, while some of you might, truth be told..I don't care. Start a blog and speak up cause that's what I'm doing.
I am so sick and tired of hearing people complain about this stay at home order! Cue the world's smallest violin! Oh you can't go to the beach? Oh you can't go to a concert? Oh you can't do this or you can't do that? Need I go on? Shut your mouth because you want to know what's more important than all of that- someone is losing someone to this disease and they aren't getting that person back! This virus is killing people left and right and if one more person says these numbers are fabricated, or that this is all a hoax, I may lose my shit.
The selfishness I've seen in people truly reaffirms what I've thought for years- the people in this world (some not all) truly suck and are despicable. I for one, haven't lost anybody due to this Virus, but you know what I just fucking buried my grandmother and my own fucking wife couldn't be by my side due the severity of this virus, and you still wanna talk to me about reopening businesses? This virus isn't a joke and the fact that so many people are treating it as such is truly repulsive. People of all ages are dying not just older citizens w/ pre-existing health conditions.
Some of you have called me extreme during this and while that's your opinion, there are words I'd like to call some of you- irresponsible! I'm doing what I do day in and day out to keep my family safe and I'll be damned if some stupid ass hole is going to jeopardize my families health cause you wanna go out and party! Grow the fuck up and shut the hell up!
Priority is a funny word to me, cause for some it means something as it does to me, but for others, well they are stuck at 21 or younger when they are around my age of 33. What do you got to show for it huh? Oh you got fucked up at a party last week---congratulations you're so cool! (Sarcasm)
I keep hearing during this pandemic that it's supposed to unite all of us, but I'm sorry, I am not seeing it. People are ignoring the law of this stay at home order, and it's disturbing! Let's beat this thing together and the sooner we can do all of that, hopefully the sooner it'll all be over.
If you haven't already guessed, I'm all for this stay at home order and I know I'm not alone, even though sometimes I feel as if I am, that our Governor is doing a tremendous job, and I'd like to see one of his ass hole critics or one of our stupid Illinois citizens do better! He is putting lives first and I stand up for him and applaud him! People say I'd think differently if I didn't have a pregnant wife or young child at home, but you know what..I'd have the same mentality.
Yeah it sucks businesses are closing and people are on hard times, but when you hear about people blowing their bail out money on useless crap, you'll get no sympathy for me. I sometimes feel like I'm 33 going on 63 due to how I view the world but you know what, I think the world and it's inhabitants could use a little bit more of my style of thinking.
I was going to say I'm sorry if this post offends anybody but I'm not going too. This world is full of so much negativity and those who like to hide behind a computer and attack people in power like our Governor, so no, there won't be any apology.
Guess I wasn't at a loss for words after all..
I am so sick and tired of hearing people complain about this stay at home order! Cue the world's smallest violin! Oh you can't go to the beach? Oh you can't go to a concert? Oh you can't do this or you can't do that? Need I go on? Shut your mouth because you want to know what's more important than all of that- someone is losing someone to this disease and they aren't getting that person back! This virus is killing people left and right and if one more person says these numbers are fabricated, or that this is all a hoax, I may lose my shit.
The selfishness I've seen in people truly reaffirms what I've thought for years- the people in this world (some not all) truly suck and are despicable. I for one, haven't lost anybody due to this Virus, but you know what I just fucking buried my grandmother and my own fucking wife couldn't be by my side due the severity of this virus, and you still wanna talk to me about reopening businesses? This virus isn't a joke and the fact that so many people are treating it as such is truly repulsive. People of all ages are dying not just older citizens w/ pre-existing health conditions.
Some of you have called me extreme during this and while that's your opinion, there are words I'd like to call some of you- irresponsible! I'm doing what I do day in and day out to keep my family safe and I'll be damned if some stupid ass hole is going to jeopardize my families health cause you wanna go out and party! Grow the fuck up and shut the hell up!
Priority is a funny word to me, cause for some it means something as it does to me, but for others, well they are stuck at 21 or younger when they are around my age of 33. What do you got to show for it huh? Oh you got fucked up at a party last week---congratulations you're so cool! (Sarcasm)
I keep hearing during this pandemic that it's supposed to unite all of us, but I'm sorry, I am not seeing it. People are ignoring the law of this stay at home order, and it's disturbing! Let's beat this thing together and the sooner we can do all of that, hopefully the sooner it'll all be over.
If you haven't already guessed, I'm all for this stay at home order and I know I'm not alone, even though sometimes I feel as if I am, that our Governor is doing a tremendous job, and I'd like to see one of his ass hole critics or one of our stupid Illinois citizens do better! He is putting lives first and I stand up for him and applaud him! People say I'd think differently if I didn't have a pregnant wife or young child at home, but you know what..I'd have the same mentality.
Yeah it sucks businesses are closing and people are on hard times, but when you hear about people blowing their bail out money on useless crap, you'll get no sympathy for me. I sometimes feel like I'm 33 going on 63 due to how I view the world but you know what, I think the world and it's inhabitants could use a little bit more of my style of thinking.
I was going to say I'm sorry if this post offends anybody but I'm not going too. This world is full of so much negativity and those who like to hide behind a computer and attack people in power like our Governor, so no, there won't be any apology.
Guess I wasn't at a loss for words after all..
Sunday, May 10, 2020
A Night Cap & A Guilty Pleasure
As I sit on the couch, wife & son asleep upstairs, I all of a sudden got the urge to write. I've appreciated all of the nice texts & Facebook comments I've received so far upon my return to writing, and it means the world to me. I will be honest, this particular post isn't going to be serious, it isn't going to be about Mother's Day, it's one that I want anyone who reads to participate in.
I find myself sipping on a Quarantine Cocktail as we're calling them at work, and I find myself watching Beauty & The Beast (2017) the live action remake starring Emma Watson. It then hit me, wow, this is one of my guilty pleasure movies that I really do enjoy. So I wanted to know, what guilty pleasure cocktails & movies do you my readers like.
Now there are far more movies I will admit, I watch whenever they come on. I think to qualify, the movie doesn't necessarily have to be an Oscar Winner, a huge box office attraction, just something you like to unwind with after a long day.
One in particular that comes to the top of my brain is Grown Ups. I just love the movie Grown Ups, the film w/ Adam Sandler, Chris Rock, David Spade and more. I like the friend/family aspect and it's something I want to have one day with couple friends and our kids, one can dream right lol. I just like the humor and the stupid Dad jokes that are on display throughout the movie.
So what guilty pleasure cocktails & movies do you guys find yourself partaking in during this lovely time in our history? I want to hear all about it. Send me some pics of those drinks, send me a favorite line from that movie. Let's spread some fun and happiness on social media instead of the constant negativity I'm reading and I'm sure your coming across as well.
Comment on this particular post, or share it with me on Facebook, let's see who responds as I like you, am looking for my next night cap & guilty pleasure to enjoy!
I find myself sipping on a Quarantine Cocktail as we're calling them at work, and I find myself watching Beauty & The Beast (2017) the live action remake starring Emma Watson. It then hit me, wow, this is one of my guilty pleasure movies that I really do enjoy. So I wanted to know, what guilty pleasure cocktails & movies do you my readers like.
Now there are far more movies I will admit, I watch whenever they come on. I think to qualify, the movie doesn't necessarily have to be an Oscar Winner, a huge box office attraction, just something you like to unwind with after a long day.
One in particular that comes to the top of my brain is Grown Ups. I just love the movie Grown Ups, the film w/ Adam Sandler, Chris Rock, David Spade and more. I like the friend/family aspect and it's something I want to have one day with couple friends and our kids, one can dream right lol. I just like the humor and the stupid Dad jokes that are on display throughout the movie.
So what guilty pleasure cocktails & movies do you guys find yourself partaking in during this lovely time in our history? I want to hear all about it. Send me some pics of those drinks, send me a favorite line from that movie. Let's spread some fun and happiness on social media instead of the constant negativity I'm reading and I'm sure your coming across as well.
Comment on this particular post, or share it with me on Facebook, let's see who responds as I like you, am looking for my next night cap & guilty pleasure to enjoy!
Saturday, May 9, 2020
A Letter for My Wife
So I liked the title A Letter to Bama a few weeks back, so I wanted to call this My Letter series. So of course, the most logical next Letter would be for my wife on Mother's Day!
Dear Amanda,
Where do I begin? We've been together since August 2009 and it's been a wonderful 10 plus year journey that's only starting to unfold. From getting engaged, to getting married, to having our first child together & now awaiting the arrival of our daughter, I couldn't be more excited. This is a scary time in not just our lives right now, but the entire planet, but I know we will continue to get through this day by day.
I couldn't be more excited that we are pregnant and expecting the arrival of our daughter this August, but as you know, I'm terrified. Not terrified to have a girl, but terrified of the constant unknown and fear due to this stupid virus. You are right, I will not always know how you are feeling and I won't pretend too. I can't even begin to put myself in your shoes or any pregnant woman's during a time like this. Know, that I commend you for how you've carrie yourself during this time, how strong you've been, how nuts you must feel at times for basically being under 'house arrest,' but I know you know the end goal is the same- to keep you and our baby girl safe and sound!
I can never thank you enough for that! I can never thank you enough for putting up with me, as I'll admit, I can sometimes not be the easiest person to live with, as I take things a little overboard sometimes, but as I've told you before, I'm doing it with the best intentions! I want you and our baby girl to stay safe & healthy and I will do whatever it takes, you know that! So thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for being in the house 24/7 for the past basically two months and holding it down so to speak.
I know you're missing out on seeing family, seeing friends, but know in the end, it won't be just me who thanks you, it'll be our daughter as well. We will go places, see people, and see and do as much as we can post this pandemic. You have my word on that.
I know our baby girl once she is old enough to understand will just give you the biggest of hugs and say thank you Mommy for keeping me safe during that. I will tell her, how strong & brave you were and how incredible of a job you did at keeping her safe you did!
So on Mother's Day, this is what I want to say to you. I love you with all of my heart, I appreciate everything you have sacrificed for our future daughter & I am beyond proud of everything you have accomplished and will continue to accomplish. You are an amazing wife, partner & most off all, Mother to our son! Watching you and him is something truly remarkable and special, and is something I certainly relish in every day!
Happy Mother's Day Babe, I love you so much! Thank you for being you, and thank you for everything you do for our family!
Dear Amanda,
Where do I begin? We've been together since August 2009 and it's been a wonderful 10 plus year journey that's only starting to unfold. From getting engaged, to getting married, to having our first child together & now awaiting the arrival of our daughter, I couldn't be more excited. This is a scary time in not just our lives right now, but the entire planet, but I know we will continue to get through this day by day.
I couldn't be more excited that we are pregnant and expecting the arrival of our daughter this August, but as you know, I'm terrified. Not terrified to have a girl, but terrified of the constant unknown and fear due to this stupid virus. You are right, I will not always know how you are feeling and I won't pretend too. I can't even begin to put myself in your shoes or any pregnant woman's during a time like this. Know, that I commend you for how you've carrie yourself during this time, how strong you've been, how nuts you must feel at times for basically being under 'house arrest,' but I know you know the end goal is the same- to keep you and our baby girl safe and sound!
I can never thank you enough for that! I can never thank you enough for putting up with me, as I'll admit, I can sometimes not be the easiest person to live with, as I take things a little overboard sometimes, but as I've told you before, I'm doing it with the best intentions! I want you and our baby girl to stay safe & healthy and I will do whatever it takes, you know that! So thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for being in the house 24/7 for the past basically two months and holding it down so to speak.
I know you're missing out on seeing family, seeing friends, but know in the end, it won't be just me who thanks you, it'll be our daughter as well. We will go places, see people, and see and do as much as we can post this pandemic. You have my word on that.
I know our baby girl once she is old enough to understand will just give you the biggest of hugs and say thank you Mommy for keeping me safe during that. I will tell her, how strong & brave you were and how incredible of a job you did at keeping her safe you did!
So on Mother's Day, this is what I want to say to you. I love you with all of my heart, I appreciate everything you have sacrificed for our future daughter & I am beyond proud of everything you have accomplished and will continue to accomplish. You are an amazing wife, partner & most off all, Mother to our son! Watching you and him is something truly remarkable and special, and is something I certainly relish in every day!
Happy Mother's Day Babe, I love you so much! Thank you for being you, and thank you for everything you do for our family!
Monday, May 4, 2020
One Last Walk with Bama
So here I am, Monday night, almost 9pm, kid is in bed, wife relaxing and I want to write something, but here's the thing---I got nothing tonight. The blog lately has been a bit on the somber side, due to my Bama's passing & I didn't want to write another sad piece as I promised this blog would have some lighter sides, but lately with everything going on, its's sometimes hard to see that said light.
Literally, this is the fourth attempt at writing something. My original plan tonight was to write a blog entitled- 'What will my funeral be like?' Then with today being May 4th, I wanted to write about 'May the 4th Be With You' & discuss the Star Wars global phenomenon and what other cult classics deserve their own special day with your guys participation.
I'm having a hard time wanting to write something positive as that's just not where my mood is as of late. Today we laid Bama to rest & I have a lot of emotions about it. I'm mad that we didn't get to have a proper wake & funeral for her because she deserved more then what we were able to provide based on the pandemic. I know the people that mattered most were by her side the last week & today but I know there were others who wanted to be there but couldn't.
Making the walk from the hearse to her final resting place today was a walk that will stick with me. During that walk, all the memories that will stick with me forever kept rushing through my head. Happy memories to sad realizations overcame me during that cold brisk walk. Seeing her casket lowered into the ground was tough to watch, but knowing she's laying side by side with her husband, a couple who have been apart of almost 30 years brings a smile to my face even as I type this.
I know they, not just her, they were looking down on all of us today and that they were embracing one another and smiling, and that's how I know she's ok. This day made me think about so much. Things like what will my funeral be like? Who will be there? What will my life's impact be and what will I be remembered for? It's thoughts like that, that make me want to always be a better human being and try to do my best each and every day for my family.
This blog has been a good way for me to express feelings and I'll continue to do that here. I know brighter and happier days are ahead and I'll be looking forward to them. I'll smile, I'll probably have a tear in my eye sometime in the coming days when something makes me think of her, but Bama if you taught me one thing it's this- be strong for your family no matter what, and that's exactly what I'm going to do.
I am grateful you are at peace, I am grateful that today, for one last time, we got to talk one final walk together.
Literally, this is the fourth attempt at writing something. My original plan tonight was to write a blog entitled- 'What will my funeral be like?' Then with today being May 4th, I wanted to write about 'May the 4th Be With You' & discuss the Star Wars global phenomenon and what other cult classics deserve their own special day with your guys participation.
I'm having a hard time wanting to write something positive as that's just not where my mood is as of late. Today we laid Bama to rest & I have a lot of emotions about it. I'm mad that we didn't get to have a proper wake & funeral for her because she deserved more then what we were able to provide based on the pandemic. I know the people that mattered most were by her side the last week & today but I know there were others who wanted to be there but couldn't.
Making the walk from the hearse to her final resting place today was a walk that will stick with me. During that walk, all the memories that will stick with me forever kept rushing through my head. Happy memories to sad realizations overcame me during that cold brisk walk. Seeing her casket lowered into the ground was tough to watch, but knowing she's laying side by side with her husband, a couple who have been apart of almost 30 years brings a smile to my face even as I type this.
I know they, not just her, they were looking down on all of us today and that they were embracing one another and smiling, and that's how I know she's ok. This day made me think about so much. Things like what will my funeral be like? Who will be there? What will my life's impact be and what will I be remembered for? It's thoughts like that, that make me want to always be a better human being and try to do my best each and every day for my family.
This blog has been a good way for me to express feelings and I'll continue to do that here. I know brighter and happier days are ahead and I'll be looking forward to them. I'll smile, I'll probably have a tear in my eye sometime in the coming days when something makes me think of her, but Bama if you taught me one thing it's this- be strong for your family no matter what, and that's exactly what I'm going to do.
I am grateful you are at peace, I am grateful that today, for one last time, we got to talk one final walk together.
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