Thursday, April 30, 2020

The day after...

So for those of you who don't know or follow me on Facebook, Bama has passed away. She went peacefully early Wednesday morning and thankfully family was around her during her final moments. I will be forever grateful I got to see her one last time the Friday before hand. Whether she recognized me or not, is a mute point as all that matters to me was I will remember her.

I won't remember how she was in her final stages of life but I will remember her during the brightest stages of her life. Giving me big kisses on the cheek, making sure I washed my hands & all the other little tidbits that will stick with me forever. I am grateful that my brother and I got to go up there yesterday and spend a few hours with family members as that was essentially her wake!

This coronavirus has changed everything hasn't it! We can't have a proper wake or a proper funeral for my Bama but in the end I'm not mad. This virus grounded a lot of us in this family. A lot of us travel for work, have hectic schedules but what this virus did allow was for most if not all of us to be there in her final days and it's something I know all of us are thankful for.

Driving home yesterday was surreal knowing she was gone, knowing I wouldn't hear her voice another time and sure it was sad, but the emotion I think I'm feeling the most the last 24 hours is happiness. Before you're all like what??? Let me explain! I'm happy because I know she's happy now! Happy she isn't having to deal with her sore leg, a bruised knee & constant in and out hospital visits to help her kidneys.

I'm happy because I know she's finally at peace & reunited up in heaven with her husband, my Papa! In the coming days as we try to make funeral arrangements it's going to be different, it's going to be difficult sure, but it's the situation we're now presented with. In the end it's what we must do, and I know when the time is right we will celebrate her life properly.

Bama I just want to let you know, I've had your hutch light on the past two days in honor of you! Your great grandson said to me yesterday, no more Boo-Boo's for great grandma and he gave you the biggest kiss.

I love you Bama, be sure to check in on us from time to time!

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